Some doodling and colouring I’ve been working on during the past few days.
Many times in my life I thought and really felt that I could never be truly happy. I still think that happiness is not a place where you arrive and live like that “forever after”. I think that happiness is something you can also cultivate daily, moment by moment. That’s something I have felt on the past few days [without indications of vanishing] since I’m focusing in less things, or at least one thing at a time based on placing my passions as priorities. I have also been able to spend more quality time with my son everyday. I feel content.
Though I don’t have figured out which is my true passion yet, but I’m getting closer. I’m definately positive that I can’t live without painting and making music, but I’m focusing on the artistic side first, to see what happens. Right now I’m working with colored pencils and the more I do, the more I want to do and learn.
Inspiration does exist, but it must find you working.
And talking about passion… this video says it all…
My books about playing the piano, guitar, bass and drums.
On a previous post I talked about cultivating my passion for music and art, but just mentioned my present actions on painting. Regarding to music on my life, I know I’m very interested on four musical instruments which are keyboards/piano, guitar, bass and drums. I have experience with all of them but I need to focus on just one or two at a time until I can decide which one suits me better.
I have a load more of stuff to study, I just need to dedicate more time to it… MASSIVE ACTION. I learned to read music and play the piano and the bass by myself. I have received a few guitar lessons from my uncle and a friend [in 10 years] and drum lessons from my friend Andrés [amazing drummer]. But most of the time my best teachers are the books [with help of the internet]. At the end of the day what matters is the ACTION.
I came to the conclusion on what has been most of my life about during the last ten years. I’ve been an aspirant to musician and artist. This is something that definately rang my bell while listening to the SXSW talk about minimalism a few days ago. Yes, during the past years I’ve done many things, but not as much as I would like to, and specially, not as continuously and consistently as I would like to.
Let’s be honest here. My priorities have not precisely been about music and art. I spent more time trying to find true love than actually practicing guitar or playing the keyboard. I spent way too many time suffering about feeling disappointed and lonely than painting or drawing. And then I tried to fill the void I felt inside by adopting many cats and dogs, who I love immensly, but also require a huge part of my time to take care off [starting with keeping the house clean]. To complete the equation… I became a mother. But also, thanks to all that has happened to me I started to value the precious time that my life is made of. So now what?
I’m conscious that maybe I want to do too many different things. Maybe I could accomplish everything, but not all at the same time. I know I have very little patience. I know I’ve abandoned things when they get difficult, so right now I’m focused on re-educating myself, re-directing my actions just and simply by DOING. I decided to start colouring with pencils a few weeks ago. I’m constantly searching and printing drawings for my son and I realized there are also ‘colouring pages for grown ups’. I loved the idea. It’s something that helps me to complete a process without compromising much of my own creativity [yet]. When I finish colouring a page I feel that I have achieved something that looks beautiful to me, I feel proud of my work but don’t have to worry that much if I created something good or worthy. It helps to re-build my confidence. And it’s really relaxing too. It’s something I can do everywhere, at any time. I’m also working in some scketches with watercolours and dry pastels until I can decide which is the technique that suits me better.
There are many websites out there with free designs available to print. I started with some from the Lee Hansen Graphics website. I’m also using a lot the Pixlr-o-matic photo effects lately – one of the best things that could have happen to me actually – because I am not a graphic designer [and don’t use instagram, yet]. I learned a little bit while studying but it certaintly is not my passion and sometimes Photoshop is a very time-consuming tool, specially for my modest needs [priorities please!].