Some doodling and colouring I’ve been working on during the past few days.
Many times in my life I thought and really felt that I could never be truly happy. I still think that happiness is not a place where you arrive and live like that “forever after”. I think that happiness is something you can also cultivate daily, moment by moment. That’s something I have felt on the past few days [without indications of vanishing] since I’m focusing in less things, or at least one thing at a time based on placing my passions as priorities. I have also been able to spend more quality time with my son everyday. I feel content.
Though I don’t have figured out which is my true passion yet, but I’m getting closer. I’m definately positive that I can’t live without painting and making music, but I’m focusing on the artistic side first, to see what happens. Right now I’m working with colored pencils and the more I do, the more I want to do and learn.
Inspiration does exist, but it must find you working.
And talking about passion… this video says it all…
JFM comment-reply to my comment in his post about not being a natural writer.
I’ve been diggin deeper into the world of Minimalism thanks to The Minimalists‘ website and the minimalistmakeover Youtube channel. In some way it all relates with what my mother has been doing during our whole lives. She has the hability to give away, sell or toss a great amount of things that she considered we just DON’T NEEDED, which has always proove to be effective when we needed to save more time, space and money. All of this has a close relation with finding your purpose in life or living through your passions, because it gives you the chance to FOCUS AND TAKE ACTION into the most important areas of your life.
So… as I mentioned in my previous posts, I have problems as for deciding in what investing my time and energy. I’m totally aware that I need to pick something and DO IT, just as Joshua says to me on that comment [original post], but I’ve been postponing this decision for years.
The time has come to make that decision.
Of course I feel afraid, because, I have that feeling that if I drop away something I’ll be missing something else. I’m afraid I will regret it after any decision I make. I know I won’t be able to make that decision in one night, neither one week. Maybe in one month.
Let’s see what happens.
I came to the conclusion on what has been most of my life about during the last ten years. I’ve been an aspirant to musician and artist. This is something that definately rang my bell while listening to the SXSW talk about minimalism a few days ago. Yes, during the past years I’ve done many things, but not as much as I would like to, and specially, not as continuously and consistently as I would like to.
Let’s be honest here. My priorities have not precisely been about music and art. I spent more time trying to find true love than actually practicing guitar or playing the keyboard. I spent way too many time suffering about feeling disappointed and lonely than painting or drawing. And then I tried to fill the void I felt inside by adopting many cats and dogs, who I love immensly, but also require a huge part of my time to take care off [starting with keeping the house clean]. To complete the equation… I became a mother. But also, thanks to all that has happened to me I started to value the precious time that my life is made of. So now what?
I’m conscious that maybe I want to do too many different things. Maybe I could accomplish everything, but not all at the same time. I know I have very little patience. I know I’ve abandoned things when they get difficult, so right now I’m focused on re-educating myself, re-directing my actions just and simply by DOING. I decided to start colouring with pencils a few weeks ago. I’m constantly searching and printing drawings for my son and I realized there are also ‘colouring pages for grown ups’. I loved the idea. It’s something that helps me to complete a process without compromising much of my own creativity [yet]. When I finish colouring a page I feel that I have achieved something that looks beautiful to me, I feel proud of my work but don’t have to worry that much if I created something good or worthy. It helps to re-build my confidence. And it’s really relaxing too. It’s something I can do everywhere, at any time. I’m also working in some scketches with watercolours and dry pastels until I can decide which is the technique that suits me better.
There are many websites out there with free designs available to print. I started with some from the Lee Hansen Graphics website. I’m also using a lot the Pixlr-o-matic photo effects lately – one of the best things that could have happen to me actually – because I am not a graphic designer [and don’t use instagram, yet]. I learned a little bit while studying but it certaintly is not my passion and sometimes Photoshop is a very time-consuming tool, specially for my modest needs [priorities please!].