Work, work, work

DSC02213rdrzmI’m dedicating five or more hours to paint and draw each day, everyday. It feels great [also frustrating at certain points, but still great]. I almost had forgotten how it felt to do it, to have new ideas one after another and that unstoppable need to create new things. I’m working with colored pencils and watercolor mostly right now and discoverying the possibilities of making visual journals.


To find contentment


Some doodling and colouring I’ve been working on during the past few days.

Many times in my life I thought and really felt that I could never be truly happy. I still think that happiness is not a place where you arrive and live like that “forever after”. I think that happiness is something you can also cultivate daily, moment by moment.  That’s something I have felt on the past few days [without indications of vanishing] since I’m focusing in less things, or at least one thing at a time based on placing my passions as priorities. I have also been able to spend more quality time with my son everyday. I feel content.

Though I don’t have figured out which is my true passion yet, but I’m getting closer. I’m definately positive that I can’t live without painting and making music, but I’m focusing on the artistic side first, to see what happens. Right now I’m working with colored pencils and the more I do, the more I want to do and learn.

Inspiration does exist, but it must find you working.

Pablo Picasso

And talking about passion… this video says it all…

Using minimalism as a tool for finding my priorities

???????????????????????????????I guess I found a life-changing tool on Minimalism. I can’t say I will make it to the extreme, but the first steps I’m taking are absolutely revealing. I found that the minimalist kind of thinking is the perfect way for me to solve my identity issues, even some anxiety issues and will help me to focus in the things that give me fulfillment. It’s not just about getting rid of all my stuff [I’m aware that I even own less stuff than the average person]. It’s about recognizing that I am MORE than the stuff I have [like cds or books], or the things I’ve done in the past, including what I’ve donde before in art and music.

I started by turning my bedroom into a minimalist space, leaving there just what I use DAILY [clothes, shampoo, soap, etc] or use frequently [like my cat’s brush]. And using my other room [as I have two little rooms just for myself] to put all the rest of my stuff… clothes I don’t use, cds, dvds, books, vhs cassettes [I have 125], audio cassettes, notebooks, art suplies, musical instruments and all sort of “miscellaneous”. All of this following the idea of the packing party suggested by The Minimalists. I had eight boxes from our last moving so I used them to pack a lot of stuff but I need more boxes to finish with everything.

I think that the easiest part for me to get rid of will be the clothes. Actually I just frequently use 20 items of clothing and 2 pairs of shoes. The rest I have saved were just because sentimental reasons and while I was studying I wanted to keep them as a reference [but I just can take pictures of each piece – just in case].

Results so far: My bedroom feels like a breeze. I like that feeling. I think I could live like that for the rest of my life. It was so much easier to invite my son to come over to watch movies and let him play in my terrace without worring about the mess I used to have. It was easier to clean.

The next step: Finish packing and give myself a few days to realize how much of all the stuff I really don’t use [or need] while I embrace that feeling of being MYSELF without all that stuff giving me identity. Then start the pre-selection [like digitalize documents, etc] of what I’m going to sell, give away, donate or throw away.

To pick just one thing

JFM coment-reply to my comment in his post about not being a natural writer.

JFM comment-reply to my comment in his post about not being a natural writer.

I’ve been diggin deeper into the world of Minimalism thanks to The Minimalists‘ website and the minimalistmakeover Youtube channel. In some way it all relates with what my mother has been doing during our whole lives. She has the hability to give away, sell or toss a great amount of things that she considered we just DON’T NEEDED, which has always proove to be effective when we needed to save more time, space and money. All of this has a close relation with finding your purpose in life or living through your passions, because it gives you the chance to FOCUS AND TAKE ACTION into the most important areas of your life.

So… as I mentioned in my previous posts, I have problems as for deciding in what investing my time and energy. I’m totally aware that I need to pick something and DO IT, just as Joshua says to me on that comment [original post], but I’ve been postponing this decision for years.

The time has come to make that decision.

Of course I feel afraid, because, I have that feeling that if I drop away something I’ll be missing something else. I’m afraid I will regret it after any decision I make. I know I won’t be able to make that decision in one night, neither one week. Maybe in one month.

Let’s see what happens.

About my passion for music

My books about playing the piano, guitar, bass and drums [most of them in spanish].

My books about playing the piano, guitar, bass and drums.

On a previous post I talked about cultivating my passion for music and art, but just mentioned my present actions on painting. Regarding to music on my life, I know I’m very interested on four musical instruments which are keyboards/piano, guitar, bass and drums. I have experience with all of them but I need to focus on just one or two at a time until I can decide which one suits me better.

I have a load more of stuff to study, I just need to dedicate more time to it… MASSIVE ACTION. I learned to read music and play the piano and the bass by myself. I have received a few guitar lessons from my uncle and a friend [in 10 years] and drum lessons from my friend Andrés [amazing drummer]. But most of the time my best teachers are the books [with help of the internet]. At the end of the day what matters is the ACTION.

The challenge of cultivating my passion for music and art

I came to the conclusion on what has been most of my life about during the last ten years. I’ve been an aspirant to musician and artist. This is something that definately rang my bell while listening to the SXSW talk about minimalism a few days ago. Yes, during the past years I’ve done many things, but not as much as I would like to, and specially, not as continuously and consistently as I would like to.

Let’s be honest here. My priorities have not precisely been about music and art. I spent more time trying to find true love than actually practicing guitar or playing the keyboard. I spent way too many time suffering about feeling disappointed and lonely than painting or drawing. And then I tried to fill the void I felt inside by adopting many cats and dogs, who I love immensly, but also require a huge part of my time to take care off [starting with keeping the house clean]. To complete the equation… I became a mother. But also, thanks to all that has happened to me I started to value the precious time that my life is made of. So now what?

DSC01757rdrzmI’m conscious that maybe I want to do too many different things. Maybe I could accomplish everything, but not all at the same time. I know I have very little patience. I know I’ve abandoned things when they get difficult, so right now I’m focused on re-educating myself, re-directing my actions just and simply by DOING. I decided to start colouring with pencils a few weeks ago. I’m constantly searching and printing drawings for my son and I realized there are also ‘colouring pages for grown ups’. I loved the idea. It’s something that helps me to complete a process without compromising much of my own creativity [yet]. When I finish colouring a page I feel that I have achieved something that looks beautiful to me, I feel proud of my work but don’t have to worry that much if I created something good or worthy. It helps to re-build my confidence. And it’s really relaxing too. It’s something I can do everywhere, at any time. I’m also working in some scketches with watercolours and dry pastels until I can decide which is the technique that suits me better.

DSC01761rdrzmThere are many websites out there with free designs available to print. I started with some from the Lee Hansen Graphics website. I’m also using a lot the Pixlr-o-matic photo effects lately – one of the best things that could have happen to me actually – because I am not a graphic designer [and don’t use instagram, yet]. I learned a little bit while studying but it certaintly is not my passion and sometimes Photoshop is a very time-consuming tool, specially for my modest needs [priorities please!].

Creating my own space

These past few days I found two articles that relate with what I’ve been doing lately… Create more, consume less and Maintaining your individuality in a relationship.

To feel good with myself I need to create in my own space. Though I’m not in a romantic relationship right now, sharing the house with my mother, my son, my cats and my dogs gives the idea of personal space not a huge chance.

Actually it took six months since we moved in here to realize how we wanted to use the areas and the space. Sometimes you have to live before you are sure how you want to live.


So I finally took on for myself the two small rooms in the upper floor where I can have a space for all my things and my work. To have two separate rooms is good to keep away the cats when I don’t want them to damage [sit on, eat, scratch, puke on] something specific I’m working on . In one room I have my bed, clothes, some books and basically is the area to rest/sleep and the main area for my cats. The other room is where I have my books, paintings, music and where I basically read, write, paint, play music, etc. If I have all my things in one place which I can call mine, I can focus and concentrate better and also use the shared areas  feeling stress-free.